Week 3.

I finished my third week back on Weight Watchers last Saturday. I need to get into a better routine of updating so I can track my progress. Anyways, I lost 1.4 that week, which I am very happy with. I am learning to be content with ANY weight loss, because every week I'm chipping away at it. I realize now that a year goes by fast. 52 weeks and even if I only lose half a pound each week that adds up to 26 pounds throughout the year! My goal this week is 1.2.

soda free.

On November 16, 2014 I had my last drink of soda.

I grew up not drinking much soda. We never had it in the house, so it was a treat. When I started Weight Watchers in 2013, diet soda was a zero point drink. Great! I could drink all the diet soda I wanted and it wouldn't count against me. So, I did. At first I just drank a can a day, at lunch. Then I started drinking it for lunch and dinner. Some mornings I even woke up and had some while I knit before work. If I didn't have soda for a few hours, I would get bad headaches. I really really loved soda.

Suddenly I realized I didn't want to be addicted to soda anymore. I was going to give it up, and that was that. I set my mind to it. For that reason I was able to push through the 8 days following November 16 of constant headaches and irritation because of no soda. It was pretty bad for a while, but I knew the headaches would end eventually. I now haven't had soda in 18 days! This may seem like a small feat, but for me it is amazing! Almost 3 weeks I have not had one sip. And you know what, I have only missed it three times.

I missed soda a lot when I was stressed out, emotional, angry, and needed something to make me feel better. In the past I would chug a soda when I was feeling that way. However another realization flooded my head: It's not healthy to rely on food to sooth emotional problems. Believing food can solve my emotional problems is the reason I am so heavy today. I want to shatter that belief.

Maybe I'm not totally healed from my food addiction, but cutting soda out of my life when I never thought I could has taken me 5 steps in the right direction.

I need to remember this phrase constantly because it's so true in my life. 

Last week was Thanksgiving so I was nervous to get on the scale Saturday. Total weight loss for the week was 2.2 pounds! I'm ecstatic with that. My weight loss for the two weeks back has been 5 pounds total. I know I won't continue to lose 2.2 pounds or more every week, because that's not healthy and The Biggest Loser is far from reality. But I can lose some weight every week, even if it's just .2 of a pound. My goal is to keep working at it every day so I make it a lifestyle instead of a diet. 

Today will be my first picture! I'm going to have Tim take a picture of me every month so I remember where I came from and how far I have come. What has most tripped me up in the past is only thinking of how far I have to go instead of how far I have come. I want to take one picture a month to remember the work I have done and remind myself I never want to be this unhealthy again.